A fool out of me

I have made a fool out of myself once again, for the nth time i have seen myself fail in a simple thing, and what made it worse is the fact that it wasn't me who saw it first. And a special person, someone close to my heart, seen it first and made me realize how stupid of an act it was.

I have made a fool out of myself by fooling myself, telling myself not to do this, not to do that, but i end up doing that thing. and i am never proud of this, 'cause not only did i make a fool out of other people, but a fool of my own self. 

This is not a good scene to see, this is not something to be proud of, this is not something I wish to carry for the rest of my life, but i know, aside from the people around me who care most about me, only i, can help myself, i got myself into this hole and i am more than responsible of pulling myself out of this.

I have made a fool out myself, and i wish to keep it that way, i have "made"  a fool out of myself. it was made and i absolutely have no plans of doing it again. i fooled myself, and the people i love and care for. my apologies, i extend.  
My gratitude, i extend as well, to the people who help me tirelessly, and i hope they won't get tired.